April 2012
17 posts
No matter how much I calculated & planned I never considered this scenario! This one REALLY hurts! All I can do is cry and the only thing I KNOW to do is pray! WOW humans gotta start treating each other better! If we knew what effect we had on one another I wonder if we would be or do any different!
What I prayed for...
Well this week has been extremely clarifying! Some things when presented seemed a little too close for comfort but I needed to know. One thing I observed was this continual need for some folks to hurt others by making them feel less than and that REALLY bothered me! I guess because I feel like nobody ever wants to feel that way so why would you subject another spirit to that? I have also seen how...
I am baffled by how selfish some people are to each other!!!! It’s as though some forget that they too have feelings and have little consideration for one another when there is no benefit for self! SMH I am seriously considering isolation as a permanent means of preservation for my own protection.
I really don’t have much else to say because I’m so disgusted by the series of...
Where Is The Love....
The single worst & most unhealthy thing I can do is hold my feelings in. I am already a person that doesn’t like to cry or share emotions with people but I have made a VERY firm decision to at least get my feelings out! It has recently come to my attention the amount of stress and damage I was doing to my internal body mainly (digestion) by not expressing my feelings.
Today an...
Peace... In Getting Over It
Getting over someone is one of the hardest things I ever had to do. It hurts and feels like agony because I feel helpless and alone. I am usually left wondering what went wrong? What happened? Was it my fault? How could I have done better to make you stay in my life? How could you make me feel this way?
Feeling abandon or neglected is not something I believe any living thing can survive. The...
So… I was looking through some notes I jotted down 176 days ago and they are still applicable…
I feel like if I knew how much I loved you, I would have cherished the time we shared even more & I was acting like a teenager (giddy & carefree & vulnerable) before I knew how deep I really was. Whew! Maybe it’s a great thing afterall because my adoration for the man I...
Hmm....
Is being satisfied enough??
The Love Of You...
As I sit here processing what I recently found out about a loved one. It dawned on me. Perhaps I hold no importance to this person I have so much love for. Why wasn’t the excitement of the moment shared with me and why do I still care so much? This must be 1 of 2 things. Either I am really into victimizing myself or my heart is too tender. I refuse to believe I am a victim it’s just...
What does this mean? Does it mean anything at all? Am I ready? I’m trusting God’s plan to order my steps cuz I don’t wanna mess this up. ; )
I never quite imagined it like this. I am eternally #Grateful : ))
I am learning what it means to really “let go & let God.”
I must go find a song to express my right now!!!!!!!
Peace & Love : )
I Want You!
Unlike Adele I want YOU and not someone like you! Handful you are, but if there is anyone I’d rather take this journey with it’s you! : )
The rain outside my window right now is washing my spirit with a renewed sense of peace & opportunity!
This week is off to a great start & I take none of this blessing for granted! God is the only AWESOME wonder!!! : )
My my my… There is something so transparent about having a conversation about something one feels strongly about, in person/face to face.
My heart is smiling on this resurrection Sunday! Thank You God for ALL!!!
I need a vacation!
The clarity that comes from what you experience that is displeasing helps to specify what you DO want!
Love is all we need! To give it AND to receive...
Trust your instincts!!! I learned a BIG lesson recently and although I could feel the angst rising up inside me as the circumstances got more and more intense, I decided to give someone the benefit of the doubt. That seems to have backfired in my face! However, I will forgive them for it is the only way to release stress that I have in the past had a history of holding onto.
Looking forward to...
Ummmmmmm…… That’s ALL!!!
The thoughts & observations...
It has been a COMPLEX & strangely peaceful week so far & the joy that fills my heart before I rest myself & drift off to a blissful and complete sleep. That joy is brought to me by: TRUTH & the smile that an old/new friend has brought to my immediate attention! It’s funny how the heart & mind battle when it comes to certain things. #Joyous&Sleepy : )
