My Thoughts

Well I clearly went to bed pretty late but then I had to be up early this am for an appt that I THOuGHT was at 11am. So I woke at 9 so I could leave the house by 10. Well, I get here 7 mins late and in a rush only to find out…My appt is at 2pm! LOL I knew I wanted to go to the park and walk & just be outdoors for a while so thankfully I dressed appropriately. I left the office and came to this little park in Beverly Hills, parked and walked around this micro city for about an hour. It was invigorating & peaceful! I had some time alone with nature and it dawned on me. My biggest AHA Moment to date. There is great peace & clarity for me in the subtle tranquility the outdoors provides.
As I sat on a park bench and gazed down at the grass and leaves that had fallen from the trees. I saw faintly some ants busily going about their day! What was so amazing to me was that none of them were afraid of being stepped on because they were so tiny and unless you were REALLY looking wouldn’t even notice them. They just knew they didn’t want to stay still and they had stuff to do! These ity bitty creatures don’t live in the fear of “what if” so why do we as humans?!?
I love being outdoors and it made my heart smile to bump into so many people on the street while strolling through the neighborhood who greeted me with a smile & a friendly greeting or nod! Yep that’s what I’m use to & I SO appreciate it! : ))

Being courteous and considerate are foundational teachings and my prayer is that we can all exhale & be a little more proactive in this area. Fact is at some point, actually at many points in our lives will want these attributes shared with us by others!

In other news. I am excited about this new cultivation of thoughts about my future that have been igniting in my head! I believe we are deliberate creators of whatever we want to manifest, so I want to make this right! ; )

I tried to commit to doing my own nails last night and stop going to see my girl Lily at Flora Nails so often, but I don’t think it’s gonna work out. Lol my finger nails are ALREADY chipped! Smh I can’t rock the chipped look it makes me feel undone.

I’m also SUPER excited about lunch today! Chicken Tacos from Frida Tacos!!! They are the BEST chicken tacos I’ve EVER had!!! : ))

I miss Hawaii! I just stumbled upon some notes I took while at the beach. This is my exact heart placement regarding love right now.

Some folks say love only exist in places other than here, but that’s not where I am. Love is where love is reciprocated with chemistry. Like the best composed melody and lyric or like without even having to tell the sun to rise…it just happens! Not to say there is no work involved in keeping it fresh but the joy it brings to have this other person in your life makes it totally worth it! I want to miss him when we’re apart. I want to get butterflies in my stomach when I think of him, & be hilariously open to trying new things and exploring the world with him! I want it to be organic & fun with a healthy dosage of honesty.

I am truly blessed beyond measure and I take none of it for granted! I give all honor to God and trust my path because I know who holds my tomorrow!

So, I have killed some time. Rambled, & shared my heart. Now I gotta get back on the road.

Have a beautiful day!

In Joy,
Erica : )

So forgive my passive aggressiveness, but this evening this girl shook my hand so lightly no I don’t me dainty & cute but like with only the tips of her fingers. Smh! It irritates me when people engage in handshaking esp men & weakly greet me! Let’s just head nod in affirmation we see each other if you gone be like that. Lol so you know what I did to ole girl… I squeezed her fingers so tight! Lol I know I’m a mess! Keep me lifted y’all!!! Lol

Oh and if you EVER try a render a Whitney song & forget the lyrics or song structure!!! Yep I witnessed that this evening & it vexed me! Ok let me get to sleep cuz I’m suppose to be writing about the great things that happened today! Lol #GratitudeJournal

I’m grateful that I’m seeking more and more micro nutrients into my body by making fruit & veggie smoothies!! I’m also grateful that I like them! They taste great, and now that I’ve added flax meal they fill me up! : ) I love the fact that I got back into my workout for the past 2 days in a row! I’ve been off my discipline for almost 2 months :/ . I’m grateful the landlady knew how to fix my garbage disposal! I’m grateful that I’m now sleepy!

Goodnight www! #BeGrateful : )

I have traveled a lot and seen/experienced a lot of cultures and places. However, there is no city, state, or country I’ve ever been that resonated on such a high level than Oahu, Hawaii!!! This visit has truly been the single BEST place I’ve ever been and on so many levels and for SO many various reasons! My heart is overflowing with joy and my cheeks are sore from how much I’ve been smiling! I made the decision to come here on faith and did so VERY spontaneously! I have been blessed richly for doing so and I thank God for alignment & the restoration this trip has allowed!

I have been thinking a lot more clearly while being here and God has revealed SO much to me in such a short amount of time while here! One thing that really took my breathe away was the revelation of my connection with water. I conquered a HUGE lifelong fear of being in the water as well as some smaller fears that I didn’t know I had until I had to face them head on to get to the other side. : ) It brings tears to my eyes to think of some of the over the top adventurous things I ACTUALLY did while here! It lets me know, that all the fear an doubt I have been carrying around with me does NOT belong to me anymore and I can do ANYTHING!!! : ))

I WILL be back!!!

I also am super grateful that God has surrounded me with such amazingly supportive and loving family while being here. It feels like every time I turn around I feel love! This has been a VERY special trip and I will never forget what I’ve learned and accomplished while in Oahu! My friends & family are here for me and all I had to do was look up. : ))

Well… I’m off to do some more QT with my new buddy “the ocean” ; ) so I’ll share more later!

#GratefulBeyondMeasure

In Joy,
Erica : )))

Well it was an up and down sleep game again last night and although I reckon I’m blessed to see this day…it has got to be BETTER around the corner because my cup is low! :( Hate to sound so gloomy but this is a censor free zone for my healing and truth. That said if would be a great disservice to act like I’m fine. I’m not fine. I’m irritated, angry, frustrated and dealing with alone…well also with God of course. Hopefully church will turn my frown upside down but I don’t wanna hear much I industry talk at all!

It was a lovely genuine blessing to hear an inspiring word from a new friend when u looked at my phone! ❤.

Oh and the fact that I had a very non confrontational discussion about how one of my so called@ friends treats me & why it hurts my feelings and time after time he seems to get it by really listening and apologizing for not seeing it at first. Has once agin THIS weekend taken my level of friendship or long term association to a totally different place and I know that it might sound mean but it’s either because he’s selfish, or super dumb! Either way I wish the very best and the value a real friend is over money, or any material procession.

I battle with this new an improved Erica to not completely dismiss people that have wronged me. I mean I can be in the exact same room with someone and never acknowledge their presence. It truly has worked for me to protect my own heart and I feel a bit I that is creeping back in as now instea of immediately deleting (so to speak) I have a little non threatening talk about why I was affected. To me that shows value one carries in my otherwise I wouldn’t care and you would be invisible to me anyway!! So when I do pull them aside to share those feelings and we talk it out. (usually) a big misunderstanding. We are clean slate and cool perhaps even closer cuz we were upfront and direct in healing a broken issue. Now I have had the exact conversation with this particular friend that I mentioned before and we seem to always totally walk away feeling clearer and stronger in our relationship. So PLEASE LORD how many more times am I suppose to be nice and gave this SAME chat?? I’m done! End of my rope and frankly although I can’t do this life alone. If I had just 3-4 REAL friends that I could depend on . I would be so grateful!

I know I’m still here for a reason and I wanna make sure live out my purpose but I stand in need if patience, endurance, & a stronger since if discernment.

I depend solely on you Lord to bring me out on top of this!!!

Although I can’t say it all, just please read my heart and take all the pain away and replace it with peace & abundance joy.

In Joy